Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Looking back

Ive just spent the last 15mins reading over all my posts from the past year. And I have to say I feel dumb. When I was posting about how KC and I will never seem to be more then Just friends or just bf and gf I should have taken the hint from myself then that things were not going to work out. I guess im mad at myself for ignoring my heart. But when you love someone more then they love you, and you are trying your best to make them love you back equal to the love you share for them, you are blinded to your true feelings. I guess I should have saved myself the pain and ended this along time ago. Oh well nothing I can do about it now right? This just proves my point that I dont think him and I are ment to be.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

OMG I POSTED!

Wow its now the END of July and im finally posting again. Sorry for the few of you that checked this :P
Well basic run down of whats been going on. Ive been working, playing EQ, goofing off with friends, and fight with KC. So as you can see nothing is really that new! Same old boring Steffy.
I guess I owe all of you a better update then that so I will go into something about each that I have said.
Work:
Hmm work has kinda sucked, Yes I still love working there, just wish Jay would stop being a dick and give me my hours back! Dam him, just because we have too many staff members I get my hours cut from 30 to 15. Thats REALLY shitty. But next month things are suppose to get better. Im keeping my fingers crossed. In the mean time Im saving my left over cash for a laptop so I can finsih my testing for realestate. Then I can roll in the big bucks and go back to school!
EQ:
Well my toon on EQ (EverQuest) is lvl 50 now, yes this is the 1st time Ive mention'd EQ but its apart of my relaxation so im gonna mention it :P YAY for Belfets, Toons name. Shes growing up soo fast (tear) :P Ive met some great people on there so all you on mIRC yes you can be mad im cheating on you :P (hugs all).
Goofing off:
Yet again I went and messed around in wallmart! This time I got bored while Patti and Tasha had to try on all these clothes, so I just started putting things on. Boxers, thongs, hats, shirts pants, skirts, slippers, all of this was on over my clothes. And I walked around for like an hour like that. Every camera I came to I posed and waved. I have never seen Tasha and Patti laugh so hard. Then I was an ass, and took all of it off at the register. The ladie looked pissed. Then I smiled and bought a pack of gum, leaving the clothes there. I dont think they want me back in walmart anytime soon :P
Kc:
Well, Kc and I have broken off the engagement, and im moving into my moms again this week. We need our space and we need to find out what makes ourselfs happy again. Cant make someone else happy if your not. I dont know what will happen with KC and I, but im chooseing not to worry about it. Time will tell what will happen. If things are ment to work out they will, if they dont, I know I will always love him, and we will be friends. No point in not being friends as long as we dont break on bad terms. So for now we are seperating, this way we will only spend time with eachother if we want to, not because we have to. Kc says he thinks this will be good for us, but he has also said he doesnt want to lose me. I think im Kc's 1st love, and I think my purpose in his life is to show him the world, then let him go to see what he does with it. I do think we will always be friends, and we will always care about eachother. But we are not at the same points in our lifes. We are both wanting different things. Oh well time will tell.

Last new news! My kitties gonna have little kitties! Yay For her! Anyone want one? They are gonna be REALLY cute!

Well that is what is new! I promise im gonna start posting again! I guess I need to enter a random thought or it would be REALLY unlike me.

Hmmm so random thought of the night...
If Christ can walk on water, Can he swim?